- Father Issues: I'm daddy's little princess and that scares some guys away.
- Immaturity issues: Back in college, when it came to issues of love and crushes, I had the heart of a thirteen year-old..... Yes. God knows how many crushes (and obssessions) I had years ago.
- My "Loudness": I guess being too talkative and active in school wasn't so attracting to guys.
- Wrong crowd: My friends say that I hang out with the wrong guys. It's either I meet guys who treat me like a sister...... Or guys make friends with me just because I know a girl they apparently like.
That last statement I just wrote has been a "curse" for me since time immemorial. Guys never made friends with me just because they were interested with me. It was always because I was the friend of this girl they liked or found pretty. It seemed like my name always had to be connected to another girl's name, a girl whom guys usually find "interesting" or "hot". Rarely do I meet guys who wanted to get to know who I am. Instead, I become friends with these guys because they'd like to get to know my friends through me.
I know. It's such a stupid insecurity, but experiencing the same thing over and over again isn't funny anymore. Actually, it gets really sick and tiring that these guys just want nothing but the 411 on my friends that they like. It even gets more annoying to see your crushes make friends with you just to get closer to your "pretty" or "more crushable" friends. What's worse, it REALLY sucks when guys just say hi to you when you happen to be in the company of your "hot" friend while totally forgetting they know you when they bump onto you in the mall alone.
Don't get me wrong. I'm happy for my friends who ended up in each other's arms through me. I'm happy that I was a "key factor" to their beautiful relationships. I've always believed that friendship is more important than my issues with men. I promised myself never to fight with a friend just because I guy I liked ended up liking her. I've always seen myself get over my crushes who end up with my friends. In fact, I still happen to be really close with these girl friends of mine...But how long will I be able to just forget and move on with life? I'm only human. My patience and understanding cannot last forever.
I just cannot be the matchmaker all the time. When will the time come for ME?:(
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I KNOW HOW FRUSTRATING IT CAN BE. IT MUST BE REALLY ANNOYING. AND IT WOULD BE WRONG TO SAY "DON'T LET IT GET TO YOU" BECAUSE IT'S REALLY SOMETHING THAT MAKES U GO "WHAT DO THEY HAVE THAT I DON'T???" BUT... YOU NEVER KNOW. SOMETIMES, WHAT YOU DO HAVE (AND THOSE OTHER GIRLS DON'T) DON'T EXACTLY ATTRACT THOSE GUYS. BUT WHY WOULD YOU WANT TO ATTRACT THEM WHEN THEY'RE THE WRONG GUYS? AND I SAY THEYRE THE WRONG GUYS PRECISELY BECAUSE THEY DON'T APPRECIATE YOU FOR WHAT YOU ARE. DON'T WASTE YOUR ENERGY ON THOSE... ;)
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