Why is it that everytime I start going out with someone, this guy just disappears and next thing I know, he has gotten back with his ex?
It's really a curse, believe me. I don't know if it's because of my old actions why this is always happening (I am weird like that) but I think this is the 3rd or 4th time this will be happening to me. It's no longer funny especially its a recurring incident with different men. This time I am more affected because I think I had a big chance with this guy.... Again, it all turned out to be wrong=(
Oh well, time to move on. Not the one I guess. Magsama kayo ng ex mo!!! Leche! haha
Thursday, June 09, 2011
Monday, May 30, 2011
Checklist
Living alone indeed has its own perks. Not only do I start knowing who I really am and what I want in my life, it has also helped me determine my ideal guy. Believe me, I do not have a very good record with men. I seem to just go with the flow most times and give chances to guys if they show signs that they are interested. I realized after many disappointments that it is not the best option... And you should not settle for somebody just because he is the one who is there.
So I have decided to make a checklist of my ideal man. This should serve as a personal reminder to never settle and always aim for the best.
1. CHEMISTRY - Even if the guy has all the traits after this, it will be useless if we do not have any chemistry.
2. 100% understanding with my work nature - I have a very demanding job and erratic work hours, and I need a guy who can understand and adjust well with my work nature.
3. Music Lover
4. Outgoing & loves to travel - I love going out and exploring myself, and it would be really nice to have somebody to share this passion with.
5. Adores NYC - Especially since I dream to live in NYC, I need to make sure that the guy loves the place the same way as I do
6. Certified FOODIE - Must have the same passion for food as I do
I'm sure this list will be longer soon... I will surely update this!
So I have decided to make a checklist of my ideal man. This should serve as a personal reminder to never settle and always aim for the best.
1. CHEMISTRY - Even if the guy has all the traits after this, it will be useless if we do not have any chemistry.
2. 100% understanding with my work nature - I have a very demanding job and erratic work hours, and I need a guy who can understand and adjust well with my work nature.
3. Music Lover
4. Outgoing & loves to travel - I love going out and exploring myself, and it would be really nice to have somebody to share this passion with.
5. Adores NYC - Especially since I dream to live in NYC, I need to make sure that the guy loves the place the same way as I do
6. Certified FOODIE - Must have the same passion for food as I do
I'm sure this list will be longer soon... I will surely update this!
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
=(
Scares the shit out of me when I get paranoid and too clingy. I am really hoping that this time around, I will not ruin the very very good prospect.
Saturday, March 26, 2011
Sick & Alone
Gone are the days when you are happy to be staying at home for a "sick leave"... One realization when living alone... Getting sick is the last thing you want to happen.
It is so hassle to get sick in Singapore. They have probably made it this inconvenient in order for people to avoid getting sick. Back home, all you need to do is to send an SMS to your boss and tell him/her you are off for the day because of fever (or some make-up stomach pain or whatever). In Singapore, an SMS is not enough.
You need to visit a family doctor for a check up, and your sick leave will heavily rely on the doctor's prescription. The number of "days off" will be dictated by the doctor's prescription. This makes "false sickness" a lot harder in SG. You cannot file a sick leave unless you present an MC (a Medical Certificate) to the HR department. If you do not present any MC, your sick leave will not be counted.
In my case now, I have not done any lying whatsoever. I really felt like shit last Thursday so the doctor gave me a 2-day leave.... And the hard part does not stop here at all... It gets worse...
Getting sick alone means having to prepare your own food even if you want to curse the whole world for all the pain you are going through. It would also mean locking yourself up in your own room since everybody is out working their asses off (something I also wished I was doing had I felt better). It's not like back home when you can always ask the maid to just call you when supper's up so that you can take your medications... When you're sick and living alone, you actually need to do the planning too! So much for getting "rest".
Unless you find somebody who is willing to take a leave to take care of you, I guess I just need to get used to the idea that this will be my future from hereon. It's not easy, so the least I could do now is to avoid getting sick-- that is, through overdosing myself with Vitamin C starting now. haha.
It is so hassle to get sick in Singapore. They have probably made it this inconvenient in order for people to avoid getting sick. Back home, all you need to do is to send an SMS to your boss and tell him/her you are off for the day because of fever (or some make-up stomach pain or whatever). In Singapore, an SMS is not enough.
You need to visit a family doctor for a check up, and your sick leave will heavily rely on the doctor's prescription. The number of "days off" will be dictated by the doctor's prescription. This makes "false sickness" a lot harder in SG. You cannot file a sick leave unless you present an MC (a Medical Certificate) to the HR department. If you do not present any MC, your sick leave will not be counted.
In my case now, I have not done any lying whatsoever. I really felt like shit last Thursday so the doctor gave me a 2-day leave.... And the hard part does not stop here at all... It gets worse...
Getting sick alone means having to prepare your own food even if you want to curse the whole world for all the pain you are going through. It would also mean locking yourself up in your own room since everybody is out working their asses off (something I also wished I was doing had I felt better). It's not like back home when you can always ask the maid to just call you when supper's up so that you can take your medications... When you're sick and living alone, you actually need to do the planning too! So much for getting "rest".
Unless you find somebody who is willing to take a leave to take care of you, I guess I just need to get used to the idea that this will be my future from hereon. It's not easy, so the least I could do now is to avoid getting sick-- that is, through overdosing myself with Vitamin C starting now. haha.
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Quarter Life Crisis
Call me dramatic, but I am in pain right now. I feel so alone, so empty... so lonely. Like everything great happening in my life is just from the outside. Sometimes, I feel like I am pretending to be fine yet deep inside I am crushing. I don't understand why I am feeling this way, I should be really thankful for all the blessing I've had these past few months. Not everybody can say that they were given an opportunity to work abroad and experience independence at 25 years old... But why do I feel this way? Why do I still seek for true happiness? Why is there always a need for me to be with people or with somebody? Why can't I just live my life and do what I want without feeling down?
I am praying for strength to get over this stage. I've had a lot of drama in my life but I don't think I have gone through anything this bad. People may think that this is merely because of the recent "heartbreak" I had with this jerk/asshole I have gone out with these past few months.... Okay fine probably a big part of this is because of him and his devious ways, but it just sucks how that heartbreak could get along with my other personal issues.
I wake up not knowing what I want in life. I wake up feeling sad, empty, lonely... I really want to do something about it but I don't know where to start. I try hard-- I distract myself with work, jogging, movies, parties, clubbing, socializing.... But where is true happiness in all of this? How can I achieve this?
I know that I'll get over this soon. I know I will. I hope I can help myself get over this... I miss my family and my friends in Manila/Cebu so much. But I am still lucky to have a good set of friends in town. I don't know if I will survive all this drama without them. And thank God for Facebook & BBM. Helps me keep in touch.
I'll be okay, I will keep my positive thinking in mind... It's what I only have now. Faith in God and myself.
I am praying for strength to get over this stage. I've had a lot of drama in my life but I don't think I have gone through anything this bad. People may think that this is merely because of the recent "heartbreak" I had with this jerk/asshole I have gone out with these past few months.... Okay fine probably a big part of this is because of him and his devious ways, but it just sucks how that heartbreak could get along with my other personal issues.
I wake up not knowing what I want in life. I wake up feeling sad, empty, lonely... I really want to do something about it but I don't know where to start. I try hard-- I distract myself with work, jogging, movies, parties, clubbing, socializing.... But where is true happiness in all of this? How can I achieve this?
I know that I'll get over this soon. I know I will. I hope I can help myself get over this... I miss my family and my friends in Manila/Cebu so much. But I am still lucky to have a good set of friends in town. I don't know if I will survive all this drama without them. And thank God for Facebook & BBM. Helps me keep in touch.
I'll be okay, I will keep my positive thinking in mind... It's what I only have now. Faith in God and myself.
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