Easy Target?

I recently asked one of my close friends if I look like I am someone who is easy to get. He said I'm not easy to get but I am an easy target. When I asked why, he said it's because I exude this friendly, happy-go-lucky image and that I look like I'm game for almost anything.

With was has been happening in my life lately, I can't deny the fact that maybe I DO look like an easy target. It's frustrating because I get judged by people without them understanding who I really am. I may be a happy-go-lucky person but I know my limits. It's really starting to bother me.

Honestly, I don't want to change this trait but maybe, all this madness is indeed a sign that I should back off and lie low for now.

YUM =)

Indonesian Fried Chicken at Twentyone Plates is L-O-V-E. <3

Breaktime.

There comes a point in your life when you stop and reflect what has happened so far. Now that I am sick due to excessive partying (and after-office dinners), I can't help but look back and better understand if I am happy with who I have become.

The reason behind this "emoness" is due to a lot of spontaneous and fun events. The past few weeks have been nothing but crazy. I went out almost everyday, "hung out" with someone, came back from a business trip then straight to the bar to get drunk-- twice, went home at 5 in the morning, met new people and random strangers, got drunk some more... The list goes on.

There's actually nothing wrong with what I have been doing lately. It's not like I started smoking pot or had one night stands. I just feel that I do not like who I am becoming to be. I feel the need to control my urge to have fun. I need to lie low... Tone down and just chill for a bit. Focus on other important things like work and family.  Get to know what I really want to do and who I want to become. Rest to party more soon (haha okay fine, maybe I still like to go out and party but not to the extent of getting drunk). Re-assess my priorities.

I'm taking a break.

Random Thoughts: 1/27/10

1. I stumbled upon the synopsis of the new movie, Dear John based on Nicolas Sparks' novel. Upon reading the novel it just made my heart melt more. Can't help but imagine that this could happen to me. And it more or less proves that long distance relationships are just too difficult to keep.

2. On a brighter note, I am looking forward to watching Valentine's Day. Aside from its star-studded cast, I am curious to know what will happen in this movie... Most likely to be very reminiscent of "He's Just Not that Into You" or "Love Actually". Now all I need is a movie date.

3. I am thinking if I have been too harsh with him on the whole situation... I don't know, it just makes me wonder what would happen if we have kept in touch until now.

4. I hate getting stressed and all paranoid. It blocks my problem solving skills. Now how do I prove myself if I'm in this kind of mess? FML.

5. Running is one of the best stress-relievers. I don't mind taking a run even if I'm super duper tired. Will make sure to do this at least once a week. So far, haven't missed a run!

6. I will try my best to eat breakfast everyday and wake up earlier so that I won't be late.

7. I need to get back on track, seriously.

8. I miss the feeling of having butterflies in my stomach. Right now I get nothing but pain in my stomach... Okay, that was an overstatement. :)

So help me, GOD.