My Soulmate (?)

I've always believed in destiny. I know that my soulmate is just out there... And I think I have met him 2 years back.

I know, it seems odd to say this once again after ranting about him a couple of times in this blog, but I can't help but wonder that MAYBE he really is the guy for me... But not for now. We've gone through so many challenges and sacrifices... I have also dated other guys in the span of 2 years but why is it that at the end of the day, I still run to him? He may be thousands of miles away from me but he seems to keep coming back in my life. And it's odd how we try to stay away from each other but I still feel the need to talk to him, or for some chance, we even end up seeing each other this year???????

Sorry, I really don't make any sense while I'm writing. I am just literally writing whatever I'm thinking right now to document this moment. But anyway, yes I was just with the guy of my dreams last Friday and Saturday night. I only found out he was coming to town last Wednesday and 2 days after, we were strolling by Clarke Quay with our bottle of Hoegaarden's. It felt like a dream... I've been dreaming so long for the day when we meet each other again. Last time I saw him in person was in April 2009, and I was even with my cousin. Now the chance to  be together-- just him and I-- has finally happened. I couldn't ask for anything more.

On our last night together, I could not help but be all emo and open with my feelings. It was like this feeling which I tried so hard to let go in the previous year was opened again. And it felt a lot better now because I am already aware of the limits of our relationship and how much we can only handle. I am more mature and strong now... It felt great to be around his arms... I don't even know when I can get that again.

I miss him already... I really do. But then again all I can do now is be patient and just let God do His magic. Seeing him these past two days alone has been magic for me. It's funny, when I think about it, it makes me so happy and so sad at the same time. So happy because I was given the chance to spend even at least 2 days with the person that really matters to me. So sad at the same time because I don't know how long I will have to wait again to get this feeling. It's just different when he's right in front of you, hugging you, and holding your hand to make sure you are safe.

Til next time, my soulmate.

What do you want?

One question that I can't seem to answer.... YET.

Easy Target?

I recently asked one of my close friends if I look like I am someone who is easy to get. He said I'm not easy to get but I am an easy target. When I asked why, he said it's because I exude this friendly, happy-go-lucky image and that I look like I'm game for almost anything.

With was has been happening in my life lately, I can't deny the fact that maybe I DO look like an easy target. It's frustrating because I get judged by people without them understanding who I really am. I may be a happy-go-lucky person but I know my limits. It's really starting to bother me.

Honestly, I don't want to change this trait but maybe, all this madness is indeed a sign that I should back off and lie low for now.

Fireproof

Saw a really good and heartwarming movie today on HBO entitled Fireproof. It's about a husband & wife on the verge of getting a divorce but rekindling the love after 40 days. Along the process, the husband finds Christ & becomes a better husband, while the wife realizes the sacrifices & changes her husband went through to prove his love.

Really, really sweet.Yun lang, just wanted to share. :)