The Nerve of the Nerd!!

12 days have passed and nothing still. No email, no offline message, nothing.

I have asked myself so many questions these past few days (and giving myself
stupid, useless excuses) why this is all happening. A few reasons I have thought of:

- He's busy (counterargument: But he has a blackberry)
- He's really busy (counterargument: No simple Hello given that he has a blackberry?)
- He doesn't know what to say
- He's thinking about the whole set-up
- He found someone else
- He's being a coward
- He realized he is not into women (haha, how lame but who knows right?)
- His boss prohibited him to access the net at work (counterargument: Duh. As if that stopped him before)


Or maybe he's just not that into me. (counterargument: c'mon, after everything that happened the past 6 months?!) (counterargument to the counterargument: he's just a jerk.)

God, I can't believe I am being my overanalytic self again. It's just that I hate waiting in general. Not knowing why these things happen... Why all of a sudden, I do not hear from him AT ALL. I do not deserve this treatment. Heck, I do not deserve having all of these feelings. Until he gives a very valid reason for this whole hiatus, it will be difficult for me to get things back to the way they were.

Just so unfortunate for me to be getting so affected with all this boy drama. Maybe it's because I saw so much "potential" in this whole set-up.... Plus the family really rooted for him... I honestly want to stop myself from feeling this way but I do not know where to start. It's totally driving me nuts and I am being unfair to myself for letting it get too much into me. :( I hope I'll be okay soon... I better be okay real soon for my own sanity!! But given my "track record", I think I'll be okay.

Random Post

I miss writing on my blog. Indeed, it has been a while. This will be a random post, so I thought maybe I'd write some random questions and feelings too. Randomize, I shall do.

1. My left eye has been weird lately. It has been "shaking" occasionally since last Saturday. Is this a sign of stress? Overworked eyes? Too much time on the PC?
2. I had the weirdest craving as well for Food Corner Shawarma Rice today, although I didn't get to have one for lunch nor dinner. How about tomorrow? I am looking for a Food Channel Buddy. Please help me satiate this craving. Haha.
3. Bi-Polar people are the worst.
4. When's the next vacation???? I am so dying to get one.... AGAIN.
5. This is bad, I am craving for steak as well. OINK OINK Mode.
6. I am not so sure if I should be happy or sad about my next business trip this June.
7. My to-do list at work last week reached to letter AD... So that's from point A-Z, then AA-AD. Damn.
8.I had my nails done yesterday, and they are in foxy red. Sizzle.
9. I can't believe Twix costs 50pesos in Mini-Stop and 36 pesos in 7-11. Screw you franchising!
10. Can I get a vacation leave? I guess not.
11. I had the sweetest textmate today. My cute 8-year old pamangkin texted me and told me she misses me! Aaww... :)
12. Grey is the color of uncertainty, and it is not my favorite color at all.
13. ARRRGGGHH. Go figure.
14. I've been singing Taylor Swift's Love Story non-stop. What the...
15. My heart just skipped a beat, and it was not worth it.

That was fun. I should write random thoughts more often. Okay, later.